In Conclusion

I saw this lateral flow test dropped in an adjacent street on my early morning walk the morning before last. It is possible it fell out of a trolley collected bin bag during the weekly refuge collections. I hope that’s the reason. Otherwise it means somebody has just dropped it in the street and they clearly have Covid. Somehow it seems to sum up an entire mood and attitude of the country I’m living in.

 It’s the end of another year. If you told me this time last year that we would still be in the position we’re in with infection rates higher than ever I wouldn’t have believed you. Even so, I see no purpose in continuing this blog. A lot of my opinions haven’t changed. And the point of it was to see what changes the pandemic and lockdowns might have on my friends and family and myself. But reading through the entries I think that’s been achieved. So this will be the last post in this blog. I’m not going to delete the blog. For I think it stands as a record of one of the most unprecedented times I’ve lived through.

It’s been a time of unrest and unhappiness. I’ve lost an aunt and uncle, a friend and neighbour of over 40 years, I’ve learnt of the deaths of acquaintances and acquaintances’ family members. Even as I write this one of my closest friends is testing daily as her partner is positive and her son tested positive today. It’s caused a kind of Civil War within the country itself. There are still hordes of antivaxxers , refuseniks and Covid deniers. And the vitriol on social media between the two opposing factions is quite distressing to read. And I’m tired of it all. I’m so weary of living this non-life. I’ve learnt how very alone I am.

Is there a plus side? I’ve witnessed the most beautiful sunrises and early morning skies. I’ve picked more blackberries in the last 12 months than I have in the last 12 years. But that seems a small compensation for all that I feel I’ve lost. However it’s too easy to be negative and pessimistic. Life is what you make it. I know I have been, possibly, overcautious about all of this. I think that comes from being alone. I have been fearful and anxious. But that’s my nature. I promise myself and everybody else that when the infection rates come down I will start venturing forth, going further afield.

To anyone who has read  this read this blog, thank you. It’s obvious that my enthusiasm for it has waned since this is the first entry in over six months but it seemed to me I was just getting repetitive. Someone said to me recently that in the very early days of the first lockdown it was all a novelty and we coped with it all so much better because it was a novelty. And I think the writing of this blog had a certain novelty value to it. The novelty has worn off. But it remains a record of this time in my life and yours too.

Lookee Here.......

 Lookee here.....

This is to celebrate “one year of hats.I’m not sure if the yarn bomb means she’s been making these for the pillar boxes for a year or whether it’s some strange millinery celebration .😉 

Sadly, not the best of weeks. After being let down by British Gas on Friday they did turn up on Monday, had a look, couldn’t fix it because a part was required. The engineer returned on Tuesday and appeared to sort the problem. And although the leak has been fixed a problem resulting from the leak hasn’t been fixed. So they have to come back tomorrow. It’s strange though, some sixth sense stopped me from putting everything back into the airing cupboard. I’m really glad I didn’t.

I refuse to go into detail about my health anymore. Suffice to say I am so fed up and worn down by all I really don’t know what to do.

On a happier note my next door neighbour’s cat now allows me to pet him. In fact he comes running up to me and rubs against my legs. I’ve spent a couple of very pleasant half hours in the garden playing with him. It lifts my heart to spend time with an animal.

Isn’t he beautiful?

The government have been criticised for not making a huge announcement about telling people not to travel to hotspot Indian variant areas.It’s been put on the government website but apparently people felt it should’ve been done so with a few whistles and bells. Because clearly people lack the intelligence and common sense to understand implicitly that you don’t willingly travel to the area that is “enjoying” a surge of a coronavirus variant that may be more transmissible than any of the previous ones. What is the matter with people?

In the early hours of Friday morning my phone rang. It woke me up, obviously. But I didn’t get to answer it because it rang off. It didn’t even go to answerphone. I wasn’t unduly concerned because it appeared to be my friends from the United States. And I figured they suddenly realised the time difference and cancelled the call. Later the next day I had a call on my landline from an unknown mobile. While I was dithering whether to answer it or not it rang off, again, without going to answerphone. Once more I didn’t think much of it. I thought that perhaps the person realised it was a wrong number. However when BritishGas tried to phone me and the call cut out. When they rang back and I tried to answer I could hear nothing but white noise I began to think something was up. And having tested the line with digital phone and an analogue phone getting the same result with both, I knew there was a problem. However the telephone company assured me there was no fault on the line. They told me they would send an engineer out and if the fault was theirs there was no charge, if the fault was mine it would cost me £85. I booked the appointment for Tuesday, the earliest  they could do. I tested the line again on Saturday. Still no joy. Didn’t bother on Sunday.Then on Monday the gas engineer phoned me and I picked up and took the call perfectly! But I was so amazed that the phone is working again I barely registered but he was saying. And I couldn’t wait for him to go so that I could test the line again. It all seems to be okay at the moment so I’ve no idea whether it was a fault beyond my control or whether it was “just one of those things”. Watch this space I guess.

Not much really to report since the last post. My friend has come back from the lodge in Somerset and we had a catch up one morning on the cliffs last week. But our timings seem to be out and we keep missing each other. In other news I’ve heard the cuckoo twice! I’m very relieved. It was getting to be tantamount to cuckoo wars up there. Everybody was wanting to hear it. Those who did were envied  by those who hadn’t. I think I was one of the last. And I saw a jackdaw yesterday morning. I like them.

It looks as if the weather might improve next week. Not before time. All that rain has turned garden into a jungle. It’s beyond me to keep it nice I think. So it’s going to be full of weeds and wildflowers. Hopefully the bees will benefit.

In Between the Rain Storms.....

 Let’s start with something nice. The new yarn bomb commemorating 100 years of the British Legion.

But don’t get too comfortable because optimism isn’t my thing at the moment. I finished the latest course of antibiotics but I’m not confident they’ve done the trick either. But I’m also dead scared of having to phone the bloody doctor again and them giving me even more. So I’m trying a regime of natural ingredients. Garlic, oregano and Cranberry. 

I had my second Pfizer jab last Thursday. And I still have a very deep bruise on my arm at the sight of the injection. I think that’s more down to administration of the jab than any real side-effects. I was very tired and spaced out for a couple of days afterwards. So if it is to be believed I am fully covered from tomorrow. Just as well. Cases of this Indian variant has tripled in a week! And they’re still continuing with the easing of lockdown. It’s scary. 

I found a leak in my airing cupboard the other day. I’ve no idea how long it’s been leaking. But it meant I had to have a man in the house. First person who has been in my house for months and months. Unless you count my sister using the loo on one of her garden trips.  Unfortunately he couldn’t fix the leak because he said it wasn’t a plumbing issue it was a heating issue. He muttered something about a trivalve drip. So I now have to wait for someone else to come on Friday. He reckons the drip was not a risk to the electrics but I’m very wary. So I’ve got towels underneath and I just replace the wet one with a dry one fairly regularly. It’s all fun in my neck of the woods I can tell you.

Consequently I haven’t been far or done much this week. I’ve read avidly which is always my go to security blanket. I had hoped that once vaccinated and with lockdown having been eased I might find the courage to go into town and see if I can’t update my phone. My dear sister, unwittingly, sent me a video last week and it just froze the whole thing up! I couldn’t get into WhatsApp because it said it was too full and I had to delete stuff before it would let me open it. The trouble is I’ve deleted so much stuff there is very little left to delete. 🤣 so I actually deleted some things I would have preferred  to keep. 😟 But I do need to be able to open that app as it’s a line of communication. 

The weather continues to be unseasonably chilly and wet. The garden is green and vibrant. But it’s too wet to do much out there. I still feel very on show when I’m out in the garden now as I’m overlooked so much. I’m sure people aren’t looking at me. They are much too busy getting on with their own lives to give a toss about what  the silly old lady at 178 is doing but nevertheless I can’t help how I feel.

I’ll Add a Title Later 😉

 You couldn’t make it up. I am now on yet another course of antibiotics for this wretched urinary tract problem. If that’s what it is. I had to take yet another urine sample down to the surgery and go through the usual shenanigans for the prescription. I read the side-effects of this drug online and was quite horrified. I also read a British medical Association journal which wasn’t very positive about it either. But according to the lab results the particular bacteria I have is sensitive to this antibiotic. But the first one I had is supposed to be too! So I can’t say I’m particularly optimistic. I did another lateral flow Covid test and I’m negative. It’s good to have at least some negative tests!

Consequently because I’ve been feeling so rough I’ve done little this week. I’ve tried to walk some mornings but I’ve been dragging myself out. My sister came down again on Sunday which was nice. Having some company was good. And the weather was kind to us. We were able to sit outside comfortably. A friend came round for an hour or two yesterday we sat in the garden.

From Monday they’re going to be some big changes following the restriction of some of the lockdown rules. People are going to be allowed to hug. The advice is ‘ they should be selective, short, and avoid face-to-face contact.’ Can you honestly see people sticking to that? People are allowed outdoors in groups of up to 30. Hospitality and indoor entertainment will be opening up again. Travel restrictions are lifted but they advise that people should only go to countries on the green or amber lists. People can choose whether to social distance between friends and family! And people are allowed indoors and to stay over. Our illustrious prime minister has advised us to practice common sense. Unfortunately there is a pre-requisite for that to take place. And that is to be endowed with common sense in the first place. My experience is that very few people are. Oh, and let’s not forget that the Indian variant has hit our shores and appears to be spreading and is,maybe, vaccine resistant. Deep joy.  Now, do I remain my usual cynical self, sit back and watch the infection rates rise again? Or do I embrace this change with open arms and start re-assimilating myself into the world again? I have my second vaccine shot tomorrow which, if it works, would afford me the most protection that I can get.

I forgot to take my camera out with me this week. So I will treat you to a couple of the wonderful photos that my sister takes. One is a wood pigeon displaying some unusual initiative and using my bay tree as a platform to extract some peanuts from the birdfeeder. Pigeons are ground feeders so this really is quite an unusual feat. Look at the expression on his face?! And the other is upon the cliffs where she took a picture of a goldfinch.

Why have I stopped giving titles to my posts?

 The pharmacist was as good as his word and delivered the antibiotics. It was only a three day course.  I feel like I’m back to square one. I’ve no idea what’s wrong with me and I don’t feel any nearer to knowing. I have a horrible feeling that this will be one more unresolved thing that I’m going to have to learn to live with. But this one is going to be a toughie as it means I can’t go too far for too long. And there’s always the threat of a major flareup. Both test results showed that I do have infections. So this morning was another trip to the pharmacist for some more medication. I said to the lady behind the counter I feel like I’ve got a season ticket for this place. She laughed. 

I had a letter telling me when my next vaccination is. Wasn’t a text message this time where I have to phone up and make my appointment. This was quite categorical. This is your day. This is your time. Be there. And the letter was quite intimidating because they say if you don’t make your appointment they’re not getting any more supplies of the Pfizer vaccine for the foreseeable future so you won’t get your course finished. Naturally it is my intention to attend. Just hope I’m well enough. Otherwise I’m screwed I guess.

I’m still in possession of much scepticism about the vaccinations. What I read in the news this morning kind of reinforces that intuition.

‘ Seychelles, which has fully vaccinated more of its population against Covid-19 than any other country, has closed schools and canceled sporting activities for two weeks as infections surge.

The measures, which include bans on the intermingling of households and the early closure of bars, come even as the country has fully vaccinated more than 60% of its adult population with two doses of coronavirus vaccines. The curbs are similar to those last imposed at the end of 2020.

“Despite of all the exceptional efforts we are making, the Covid-19 situation in our country is critical right now with many daily cases reported last week,” Peggy Vidot, the nation’s health minister, said at a press conference Monday.’

Hmmm. And as our country moves closer to allowing international travel and talks about ending the need for social distancing I am very afraid that we might be heading for another surge. Only this time I don’t believe the government will impose another lockdown and we are going to be in a bit of a mess. But remember I am a catastrophiser,  I am a pessimist and there’s absolutely nothing I can do about it.

To lighten the mood I am happy to show you the yarn bomb lady’s latest offering.

Topical. The cars race along this road. I took my digital camera with me this morning. I made Sue, my walking friend, laugh the other day. Because I said there was always a frisson of anticipation at the thought of there being a new yarn bomb. Then I added, or maybe I need to get out more!

 My poor phone is so overloaded that it just won’t take photos anymore. I’m going to have to do something about it. Because if anybody sends me a photo or a picture it takes me ages to actually get to it because the phone is so choked up and I have to try and delete something to look at the new thing. It’s actually driving me round the bend! But having that camera with me this morning meant I could take some more pictures. And I took the peacock oak in all its budding glory.

Something I’m delighted about. At the end of last season upon the cliffs both Sue and I were collecting seedpods and seedheads of some of the plants we found attractive. There was one plant that I called the coronavirus plant because it had these red spiky spherical flowers that reminded me of the pictures they show of what coronavirus looks like. I did ask one of the groundspeople what it was actually called and it is a castor oil plant. I saved some of the seedheads and let them dry out. And I tried planting some. The seeds resemble runner bean seeds. They’re actually quite beautiful. And one is germinating! I feel very excited.

The yarn bomb lady has been at it again. This time it’s for Saint Georges day. I’m wondering if she has them planned or whether she does them really quickly. She can’t have had the Duke of Edinburgh planned as she didn’t know he was going to die. Or maybe she hedged her bets that at 99 perhaps he couldn’t  go on much longer.

Not a good week. I finished the antibiotics for the tonsillitis. And a few days later my bladder flares up again. More blood. Not as much as last time. But the doctor said if there was any more blood I should get in touch. So I did. Another urine sample to the surgery and another swab test. I expressed a concern for the amount of antibiotics I’ve had in the last six months which the doctor agreed about. However later in the day I got a text from them saying I have an infection and I need to go to the pharmacy to pick up a prescription. I go to the pharmacy to pick up a prescription. But the antibiotic she selected for me is not in stock. So I have to wait now until the pharmacist gets it in and he’s going to try and deliver it tomorrow if it comes in in time. Otherwise it will be another trip up there. Not only do I have a season ticket for the doctors and nurse consultations I also have a season ticket for the pharmacy. I’m sick and tired of it. I just don’t know how to get myself well. If healthy eating and plenty of exercise don’t work. Then what the hell does? On the way back from the abortive trip to the pharmacist I went into the corner shop and bought a packet of digestive biscuits. So there.

It’s a shame because the week started off quite pleasantly. My friend took me on a trip to the nursery. She wanted to get some vegetables for her grandchildren to grow. It was a very successful project last year. I jumped at the chance of a trip out. I sit in the back of the car with my mask on, she sits in the front and opens the windows so we are pretty well ventilated. I bought some Lobelia; normally mine self seed year after year but because of the snow and the cold I’ve none this year. I also bought some insurance sweet peas. Insurance? Well, I’ve grown some from seed but in case they don’t make it I’ve got these so that I’m fairly sure I will have some for the summer. 

I also had my trip to the dentist. And they tried their hardest to make it as Covid safe as they possibly could. They already phoned me as a courtesy to do a risk assessment and put my mind at rest. I arrived I suppose about a minute or two before my appointment, knocked on the door and they unlock it and let you in. Before you can go anywhere you have to put a hat on over your hair and gloves on, then you go straight up to the surgery because they’re not using the waiting rooms. The dentist was all PPE up with a Perspex visor on. He did my checkup at the same time as mending the tooth. Cost me 60 quid which I wasn’t impressed about but it’s done. I feel reasonably safe. But of course the dentist has to put his fingers in your mouth which seems to me to be really risky. He had gloves on but I’ve no idea what he might have touched. 

Not really done anything else except race around to surgeries and pharmacies. And sat about feeling sorry for myself. Downing paracetamol like they are Smarties because I have back pain and tummy pain from this infection. Drinking loads of water to to see if I can’t flush my bladder clean. At least I know from the scan that there was no cancer in the bladder. 

It certainly all takes your mind off Covid. Although having said that I did another one of my home lateral flow tests. Negative. I hope to be in a better frame of mind and a better state of health by next weeks post.
 

 I went to the corner shop this week! It’s the first time in over a year that I’ve been in there. I didn’t go for my early walk, I went later and the notion came into my head whilst walking and it just wouldn’t leave. So I did it. There was no one else in the shop. The cashier was properly masked up. It wasn’t that I especially needed to buy anything so I came out with - chocolate, crisps and bread. All naughties. Somehow it seemed like a hurdle had been jumped. 

My sister came down for a visit yesterday. I haven’t seen her for months so it was quite emotionally  charged. We went to the cemetery. After my Mum died we had her ashes interred in the grave of her parents. It was a costly venture so we have been conscientious about keeping the plot maintained. However that was difficult during a pandemic! One time my sister came down and we did go to the grave but we did nothing other than look. This time we went armed with buckets, detergent and cloths to give it a much needed spruce up. 

After that we went to a garden centre. Although the car park looked crowded the size of the complex meant that people were pretty well spaced out and it was relatively easy to avoid those people who still haven’t heard about social distancing. The tills were the most perilous thing to negotiate. Although there were markers on the floor (I don’t believe they were two metres apart though) it was too difficult for some people to do. 

We spent a lot of time in my garden but we also did an extended cliff top walk where I showed my sister my silly little landmarks and we explored some ‘secret’ paths. My sister had brought her SLR camera with her and took some wonderful shots both in my garden and while we were out. This photo of a nesting tit was in my neighbours garden, many metres away.

It was a lovely day and she arrived earlier than I thought she would and stayed longer than I thought she would and, indeed, than she intended to but it was such a pleasant time neither of us wanted it to end. And my brother phoned so we had a three way chat via speakerphone as if we were all together. 

Not being used to having company for so long, or going out and about so much I was sooo tired! I tried to have a lay in this morning. I didn’t go for my walk. In fact I haven’t left the house today but it doesn’t matter. I’ve pottered. 

I’ve nearly finished my antibiotics and although the inflammation on the tonsil has gone I still have a vaguely sore throat. Of course as there are still no face to face examinations as standard the tonsillitis diagnosis has never been confirmed. I’m just hoping things don’t follow the same pattern as last time where I was weeks with a sore throat and recurrent tonsil inflammation. It’s being such an optimist that keeps me going.

Walloping Cods

 Two blog posts in one week?! I can hear your sharp intake of breath. But I saw something in the news that just drove me to commit my thoughts in some form or other.

‘ Boris Johnson has warned that the reduction in coronavirus infections, hospitalisations and deaths "has not been achieved" by the rollout of COVID vaccines.

The prime minister, speaking the day after the latest easing of lockdown restrictions, instead said it was the national shutdown that had been "overwhelmingly important" in driving down COVIDrates.’

This was from Sky News. And I challenge it unreservedly.

If the reduction in coronavirus infections were achieved by lockdown we would’ve reduced the infection rate months and months ago. Lockdown might work if it were observed properly by the majority of the population but it isn’t. It seems to me that there are various categories of lockdown “compliance“.

• People who follow the guidelines to the absolute letter as far as possible. (I’m in that category.)
• People who wilfully manipulate the guidelines to suit their own circumstances and desires.
• People who manipulate the guidelines to their own ends because they don’t actually understand the guidelines fully or have trouble interpreting them.
• People who are not complying out of sheer ignorance.
• And then you have the Covid deniers, anti vaxers and refuseniks who would thwart any directive given to them because no one is going to tell them what to do. And they didn’t vote Tory anyway so why should they do what they say. Blah blah blah.

And if I’m not mistaken infection rates started to drop before the easing of lockdown began. So I would say that is purely due to the vaccine rollout. And it’s because lockdowns haven’t worked that we have to rely on vaccines. I am incredibly sceptical and cynical about the vaccines. They’ve not been around long enough to be properly tested. The long-term effects can in no way be known. But where you’ve got a population that simply won’t do as they’re told you’ve got to have some way out and vaccine is the only way as I see it. Unless you live in a country like New Zealand of course. 23 deaths in total from Covid! I know you can’t make a viable comparison between our two countries. New Zealand were able to close their borders because they are a self-sufficient country. Our country is not self-sufficient and closing the borders would have meant an imposed starvation because we don’t produce enough food to feed our population. But national compliance went a long way to make New Zealand a bastion of Covid excellence.

Okay. So I guess this is more of a rant than a blog post. But I needed to get it off my chest.

What a Week......

 Pre-Covid and lockdown I don’t suppose it would have been a week of note at all but in this seriously diminished life we are leading it’s been........quite a week.

Firstly I broke a tooth. I was horrified because I knew it meant contacting the dentist. And of anywhere to go the dentist seems to me to be one of the most risky because the Dentist has to get so close to do what he needs to do.  But it’s not causing me serious pain and it’s not affecting my sleep and my eating so it’s not considered an emergency and they can’t do anything until the 26th of April.

Then my dear friend started coughing up blood on Friday. She was worried enough to phone the doctor right away. The doctor wanted to send her to the hospital for an urgent chest x-ray but she’s only recently had a CT scan. So they told her they would phone her back. They asked to come into the surgery for an examination. I offered to walk down there with her and to my surprise she accepted. So I knew she was worried. We were a little early so we waited outside the surgery leaning against the railings. A lady came out of the surgery and started to talk to my friend. I thought that they knew each other but that was not the case. To my mind she was much too close. So I moved a little further away. Then I realised my friend was thinking exactly the same thing and she quite pointedly put a face mask on but the woman was undeterred. I could see my friend  edging away. And then as the woman took her leave she actually touched my friend! She wasn’t a young woman, possibly older than either of us. And I suppose there’s a part of me that’s not surprised when I consider statistics and how ignorant and unaware people are of how this virus spreads. 

My friend was in and out very quickly. And the diagnosis was an infection and she’s on antibiotics. My friend has been taking lateral flow tests twice a week. They’ve all come back as negative. But the doctor insisted she take a “proper” Covid test! That’s because the lateral flow tests aren’t always accurate! So what’s the point then? I found it doubly ironic as from Friday all households can have their own lateral flow Covid tests. I sent off for mine. They arrived on Saturday. My friend had her test and it’s come back negative. However they still are insisting she goes for a chest x-ray which she’s having tomorrow.

On the way back we went into a............. supermarket! My friend said she wanted some things. I wasn’t going to go in. I was going to wait outside. But then something in me said, give it a try. So I masked up, wiped down my wire basket with the wipes and sanitiser they had at the doorway and because the store has nice wide aisles it was relatively easy to social distance. It wasn’t a sensible shop. I didn’t know what I wanted but I grabbed a large pack of strawberries and some other random items. It reminded me of the last time I shopped in a supermarket before lockdown where I bought the most ridiculous things in a kind of weird panic. 

I have used one of my home tests already. That’s because my tonsil has flared up again. I got scared it might be Covid. It’s quite alarming this time because not only is the tonsil all red and inflamed but there is a huge lump, all yellow and white on it. So I had to phone the surgery again. Another phone consultation with the nurse. No one actually looked at it. They’ve shoved me on antibiotics again. I was worried it would put my scan in jeopardy but the nurse said keep the appointment because they’re hard to come by. I’m not in a very good place, mentally. Some of the discomfort has eased today but I find I’m really croaky so maybe some of the gunk has run down my throat and is affecting my larynx.I hope it heals soon.

In other news Ryan the Window Cleaner came last week. I’ve given his number to a couple of my walking friends. One of them had got in touch with him and given him a gutter clearing job. He was very pleased and grateful to me for recommending him.

Shops, gyms, hairdressers, pubs, and other places as well I’m sure,  all opening from Monday. I shan’t be going anywhere near. Despite having had the jab I’ve not a lot of confidence in other people.

I had an interesting conversation on Saturday morning. One of the regular walkers, who has an 18 month old sheep dog called Tex, stopped to chat as she often does. It turns out she’s a gardener by trade. I asked her if she was taking on new clients and her face kind of wrinkled up so I thought oh it’s no good. But she explained that she is and she isn’t. Since she’s had the dog she doesn’t like to leave him for more than a couple of hours at a stretch so she’s quite selective about who she works for. But what she likes to do is work and garden alongside people. She said particularly for older people who might be finding it hard to manage their gardens, she does the donkey work and they potter about doing what they like. It sounded very good to me. So we’ve exchanged numbers and if I find the garden hard going I know that there’s someone I can call on. She is called Amanda. I told her she could bring Tex. She can garden and I’ll play with him! I didn’t even ask how much she charges. Somehow it seems immaterial. I didn’t get the feeling that she is a sort of person that would fleece me.

My other walking friend, Sue, has gone down to Somerset for a week. She and her partner, Ian, have bubbled since people were allowed to bubble so it’s more or less within the guidelines. Together they’ve bought a lodge on a holiday let site and they’ve got to go and prepare it for people to come and stay in. They are going to use it themselves but they are hoping that they if let it out to renters that will pay for some of the costs. Interestingly enough it’s not far from the village of Netherstowe which is where my ancestors come from.

I had my scan yesterday. My friend gave me a lift for which I was very grateful as I wouldn’t have relished having to get a taxi. It was a health care centre the other side of town. I’ve never heard of it to be honest. I didn’t even know it was there. But I was quite happy to go somewhere other than the hospital. It’s a very modern building and it was beautifully airy and spacey so there was no social distancing problems at all. The receptionist was very welcoming and I was seen ahead of my appointment time which,  given how full my bladder was after drinking a whole litre in one go, was good news indeed. In fact I was complimented on the fullness of my bladder! Apparently it makes it easier to see all the organs if they can do the scan over a full bladder. They couldn’t find any anomalies anywhere. So that’s an absolute relief. It doesn’t explain the problems I’m having but as it doesn’t seem to be cancer,  from the scan,  that has to be good news.

The knitting lady has been at it again with another lovely yarn bomb.

And Into April We Go.......

 A startling news report today tells of 50% of the UK population not knowing what the main symptoms of COVID-19 are?! That defies belief. And fewer than one in five people request a test when they display symptoms and  the number who thoroughly self isolate after testing remains low. And that is why, my friends, we have been in this situation for over a year. And that is why vaccination would seem to be the only solution. Because at least people who are vaccinated might have some chance against these cock wombles who still aren’t joining the dots.

On one of my walks I saw where they have relocated all the stones from the Covid snake. I’m so pleased they saved them. I couldn’t find mine, alas, maybe it fell by the wayside. But I like what they’ve done with them. 

It didn’t feel in the slightest bit like Easter. Think I may have said a similar thing this time last year! No Easter eggs! Strange day. It was cold and the Sun was shining. Probably too chilly to be outside although my neighbours either side both had people in. In fact my neighbours one side have had visitors in the garden the whole weekend. Till gone midnight on Saturday night,  their laughter kept waking me. I never feel so inclined to go outside now when there are so many people about. I feel so exposed. I have to get over it. Now that my neighbours work from home and they’ve had that awful Home Office built that faces my house I think that contributes to that sense of exposure.But funny how the whole dynamic of something can change. For my friends popped round and sat in the garden with me for an hour or so in the slightly chilly spring sunshine. And they brought me a Lindt chocolate bunny. So I did have some chocolate on Easter Sunday.😃

But the temperatures plummeted and on Easter Monday, believe it or not, we had a sprinkling of snow! It didn’t settle and it didn’t fall for any length of time but nevertheless it seemed a little perverse for an April day to be a snowy day. And the temperatures haven’t really risen much. It’s been very cold in the morning. I remembered to take my camera with me to take some pictures of the glorious blossom that is very evident at the moment.

I didn’t walk at all this morning. I had a really bad night and I could see the frost when I peered through the curtains. I thought I might go out during the day but I haven’t. And the Sun is gone now so it’s not very inviting. I did spend some time outdoors sweeping up the magnolia petals that fall from my neighbours tree. I have to be careful they don’t get soggy and slippery because they’re on the path to the shed. And now I don’t have my garden fellow I have to keep a careful eye on these things.

A third vaccine is now being used in the UK. Moderna, I believe it’s called. There remain some concerns that the Oxford AstraZeneca causes a rare form of blood clotting. I had the Pfizer and so did my brother and sister. But my friend and her partner had the Oxford so I’m a little bit worried. Funny I really wanted the Oxford Astrazeneca vaccine. I don’t know why but now perhaps I’m a little relieved I had the Pfizer although that may have some unpleasant side-effects, too, in the future. The truth is nobody knows what the long-term effects of these vaccines are. They might deal with Covid in the short term but what do they do in the long term?

Will I Keep This Up?

 I mowed the lawn for the first time this week. But I have to pay for it the next day as my back moans as soon as I move the lawnmower out of the shed and it doesn’t let up for a considerable time after that! The GP is finally sending me for a scan. It’s an ultrasound scan and it’s to be on the 13th of April. And I have to drink a whole litre of water one hour before the scan. I can’t say I’m not worried because I am. But what will be will be. The interesting thing is it’s not going to be at the hospital. It’s going to be at another healthcare centre. I was completely ignorant of its existence. But my friend said she’ll take me. And I’ve a feeling that because it’s at a smaller centre the risk of Covid will be less. However, now I should be protected by this vaccine, if indeed it works.

On Monday the ‘stay at home’ rule ended. Although the government advised people to ‘be cautious’! Ha! See that flock of flying pigs!? We can now meet in groups of up to six outdoors in parks and gardens. Or two families can meet. Of course people will interpret ‘families’ in different ways, won’t they? Outdoor sports facilities can open too - golf courses , outdoor swimming pools etc. It will be interesting to see what this does to the infection rates. Pessimist that I am I expect it to rise. People can’t be trusted. 

We’ve had something resembling a mini heatwave. It’s been most pleasant. The mornings up on the cliffs have been quite idyllic. Watching the blossom coming out on the various shrubs in the hedge row has been quite delightful. There were wrens and chaffinches busying about this morning as well as the larger birds like jays and crows. 

The lady who is doing the yarn bombs for the pillar box outside her flat has done one for Easter. 

I will confess to almost forgetting that it was Easter. That’s the problem with lockdown. One day seems very much like another. I say that, though, but it’s a curious thing, for somehow weekends still feel very much like weekends even though I do exactly the same things as I do during the week. I was particularly conscious of this the last Saturday passed. For it felt unmistakably  Saturday. And I couldn’t put my finger on why. I went out for my early walk as usual. I chatted with the other walkers up there as usual. Everything I did that day was as usual. And yet it still felt that it could be no other day but Saturday. One auspicious event this Saturday was the clocks went forward. That always makes me happier. So it’s officially British summer time.

I do make an exception on Sundays though. I try to make things a little bit different. Sundays is always changing the bedding day and I treat myself to a cooked breakfast which I linger over while I listen to a little jazz. Usually Pat Metheny. There is something very “Sundays“ about his style. 

In spite of this pleasant weather we’re having at the moment the weather forecast is quite depressing for the Easter weekend. In fact they’re even sleet showers forecast for the Monday! I struggle to get my head round how it can be 21/22 degrees one day and dipping down to -1 within the space of a few days. It’s very confusing for the plants and the wildlife though not to mention an ageing old pensioner like me!

One of my favourite publishers was advertising a job on social media. Jokingly I responded and said do you take on pensioners? And I put the wink emoticon afterwards.  I got a reply back from one of the staff who said of course! Do you know what? It actually crossed my mind as to whether I should apply. I won’t. At my age it’s absolutely ridiculous. But they’re such a lovely bunch of  people. I went to a couple of the evenings that they hold to promote new titles for the forthcoming year and they invite loads of book bloggers and influencers to come along. I know I’m probably the oldest person there but they bend over backwards to make me feel included and welcome. I come away feeling so uplifted. Obviously they didn’t hold it last year because of Covid. They had an event online via zoom. And they sent a box of proofs and goodies through the post beforehand. Usually when you go they hand you a totebag which you fill up with books throughout the evening as well as helping yourself to all the drinks and nibbles they have. I’m really hoping that this year if things progress positively I might get to go again. If they invite me. Something nice to think about anyway.