Day Seventy-Four - Stressing, Clapping and Changing

Well I've been stressing all day over the faintly suspicious email that I received from DPD advising me of an Amazon order. And then I started googling online scams et cetera reding of the increase during the pandemic and saw that DPD have been used in some cyber crime. I got another email telling me that my delivery would arrive between 3:15 and 4:15 today and the delivery driver's name was Damian. It all seem to be perfectly legit. Except that I didn't have an Amazon order on its way. So what the hell was it! Eventually I decided to phone DPD which tried my patience because of course, like everywhere during this lockdown and the Covid pandemic, they're taking ages to answer. Possibly people are working from home so patience is absolutely essential, it's not their fault. They assured me it was a legit delivery, they could see it on the screen and it would arrive within the allotted time. So I guess I felt a little bit better. Lo and behold,  it did arrive within the time slot. But what was it, I hear you ask? It was a duplicate delivery! Never in all my days as an Amazon customer have I had that happen. One came via Royal mail yesterday and this arrived today. I'm going to have to get in touch with them because I'm too honest a person to just shrug my shoulders and say well, it wasn't my fault and keep them both. But I have been so stressed today about this. I had my bank's fraud phone line at the ready because I really felt I would have to phone them to put a stop on things in case my account was being milked.

I made a new resolution today. I wasn't going to get cross any more about the barking dogs, the loud music, loud conversations, in short the numerous  inconsiderations of people. I don't know how long this lockdown is going to last or this beautiful weather but whatever happens  I'm going to have to put up with this and not let myself get up stressed and upset by it. So when I've been sitting outside reading and for example the dogs have started barking I've just calmly closed my book and come indoors. Maybe not what I want to do. But I think it would be better all round. My language might improve for a start not to mention my blood pressure!

I did some more gardening this morning but ooh,  my hands hurt. Becoming quite a problem. They were hurting in the night too. I'm sure it's arthritis and tendinitis. But I need my hands. I use them all the time.

The police have fund Dominic Cummings guilty of a minor breach of lockdown rules. No further actions. What would constitute a major breach then? FFS.

The Covid alert level is expected to be lowered. With that will follow more lockdown easing. I will await the measure with interest but I can't see my behaviour changing too quickly. I remain cautious. Tonight will likely be the last Clap for Carers in which case I shall join in. However I fear people will go overboard in the noise and fuss they make. But it's right that it should stop. I think the real meaning had all but disappeared. I remember the first time we did it. I thought that would be the only time!!

I do sense a subtle and gradual change in things. I'm not sure what that means. And I'm not sure what it means for me. Is interesting in the early days of the lockdown everybody was getting in touch with one another. People you hadn't heard heard from for years got in touch. It's stopped now nobody much contacts me anymore. It doesn't matter. It's kind of an organic development I think. Lockdown was a novelty to an extent. Not anymore. It's a way of life.